i can continue pretending.
blog| profile| etc
if i could tell you.
Monday, March 08, 2010 @ 11:43 PM
i want them to shout and scream at me.
i don't want her to see me enter the house and ask if i wanted lunch.
i don't want her to pretend that i didn't say anything.
i don't want her to ask if i wanted anything more.
i don't want her to ask if i specifically wanted something for dinner.
i don't want her to check out on me after lunch and told me to get some sleep if i wanted to.
i don't want him to peep from the kitchen door the moment i step into the house.
i don't want him to return into the kitchen after lunch and pretend that he was there for a purpose when he wasn't.
they appear to be behaving more caring than usual.
i know they've got to say something, but nothing comes out.
because they know how i feel.
but their acts make me think that i've let them down even more.
i rather they scream, or shout.
as long as they make me know it's my fault.
maybe it's time for me to change my expectations from
entering a junior college
to
to graduate.