exactly this morning,

i had a dream.

i dreamt that my hamster passed away.

this afternoon,

i realised,

she was really gone.

my heart was thumping when i lured the other hamster out of the sandbox.

shaking the box, blowing at her.

no movement, no reaction.

then there's a point where you stop all your actions.

because you realised she's gone.

then you start crying because she looks so skinny and fragile yet peaceful,

and regret about the time when you neglected her.

i guess it happens all the time, this regretting situation.

the other hamster kept going back to her.

nibbling her fur, paws on her.

chewing on the sandbox, trying to get her out of it.

i guess it's the first time i saw him stick with her for the longest period of time.

i remember i used to favour her over the other.

because she was more active and less dirty.

but mummy says her sufferings have ended.

even my sister hid in the toilet to cry.

then it suddenly strucked me that death is something so sensitive.

exactly this morning,

i had a dream.

i dreamt that my hamster passed away.

this afternoon,

i realised,

she was really gone.

my heart was thumping when i lured the other hamster out of the sandbox.

shaking the box, blowing at her.

no movement, no reaction.

then there's a point where you stop all your actions.

because you realised she's gone.

then you start crying because she looks so skinny and fragile yet peaceful,

and regret about the time when you neglected her.

i guess it happens all the time, this regretting situation.

the other hamster kept going back to her.

nibbling her fur, paws on her.

chewing on the sandbox, trying to get her out of it.

i guess it's the first time i saw him stick with her for the longest period of time.

i remember i used to favour her over the other.

because she was more active and less dirty.

but mummy says her sufferings have ended.

even my sister hid in the toilet to cry.

then it suddenly strucked me that death is something so sensitive.

wenxin.

i've developed a special liking for balloons.