mid-year is finally over.


i've been through hell.

i will really smack myself if i say i meant it.

the truth is,
i hadn't been in hell for mid-year at all.
i've been going online every single day,
not finishing what i'm suppose to study.



i think it's a very weird thing.
i'm now sec 3, just one more year to o level,
and a few months away from o level mother tongue.
i'm supposedly to be more tensed/hardworking in comparison to last year.

but,

after every year,
i start to lose/decrease the significance/importance of studying.
instead of feeling it as more important, i feel that it is less important.
it feels kind of bad, but kind of good at the same time.
you know what i mean?
kay, you probably dont.




anyways, so yeah, i've been online + using the compuer as per normal during the mid year.
so, you know, if i score badly,
i can just like being online whole day and not studying that led to my poor results.

but the truth is,
i'm just plainly dumb.
and reluctant to face the fact about it.
kay, maybe i'm not reluctant to face about it.
just running away from it.
kay, what the hell am i talking about?
they mean the same. -..-



so basically, this whole mid year thing is a surescrew thing.

___________________________________________________________

(the above was supposedly to be published on the 18may.)

and so,
today is 21stmay.
got back all of my results.
some say i'm surprised at some of the results.
like amaths and emaths, didnt think that i could get an A.
and some were expected.
like biology..
regarding that ..
let's not talk about that.

kay, bye.
HA.

mid-year is finally over.


i've been through hell.

i will really smack myself if i say i meant it.

the truth is,
i hadn't been in hell for mid-year at all.
i've been going online every single day,
not finishing what i'm suppose to study.



i think it's a very weird thing.
i'm now sec 3, just one more year to o level,
and a few months away from o level mother tongue.
i'm supposedly to be more tensed/hardworking in comparison to last year.

but,

after every year,
i start to lose/decrease the significance/importance of studying.
instead of feeling it as more important, i feel that it is less important.
it feels kind of bad, but kind of good at the same time.
you know what i mean?
kay, you probably dont.




anyways, so yeah, i've been online + using the compuer as per normal during the mid year.
so, you know, if i score badly,
i can just like being online whole day and not studying that led to my poor results.

but the truth is,
i'm just plainly dumb.
and reluctant to face the fact about it.
kay, maybe i'm not reluctant to face about it.
just running away from it.
kay, what the hell am i talking about?
they mean the same. -..-



so basically, this whole mid year thing is a surescrew thing.

___________________________________________________________

(the above was supposedly to be published on the 18may.)

and so,
today is 21stmay.
got back all of my results.
some say i'm surprised at some of the results.
like amaths and emaths, didnt think that i could get an A.
and some were expected.
like biology..
regarding that ..
let's not talk about that.

kay, bye.
HA.