gastric.
gastric.
gastric.
gastric.
gastric.


PAIN.

oh, what the hell.
tuesday,
i spent 1 hours 10 minutes squirming in class like a worm controlling the pain.
after that,
i spent 35 minutes squirming in canteen like a worm controlling the pain.
after that,
i spent 3 hours in ava squirming like a worm controlling the pain.
after that,
i still continued squirming at home like a worm controlling the pain.

but then the most terrible pain i endured was what i endured in the ava.
i practically sit on the chair, with countless number of positions.
i can be lying on the table.
i can be lying on the chair's left arm.
i can be lying on the chair's right arm.
i can be lying peiying's table.
i can be lying on my legs.
i can be lying on the chair itself.

when it was 6pm,
i found myself sitting on the ground,
desperately grabbing onto peiying's skirt.
and then supressing the vomit.

after tuesday,
i thought everything's going to be fine on wednesday.
and then NO,
the horrible feeling stays.
i feel like there's a hole in my stomach.
whatever i eat, falls out of that hole,
and then my stomach is empty all over again.
so i thought everything's going to be fine today.
and then once again, NO,
the feeling is still there.
plus, i have some weird awkward feeling in my stomach now.
so, if i sum it up,
i feel like i'm about to deliver.
(like i know how delivering feels like like that. -..- )

i feel so super screwed.
so i think it'll be fine tomorrow.
wish me luck.

i ..
feel like effing removing my stomach now.

gastric.
gastric.
gastric.
gastric.
gastric.


PAIN.

oh, what the hell.
tuesday,
i spent 1 hours 10 minutes squirming in class like a worm controlling the pain.
after that,
i spent 35 minutes squirming in canteen like a worm controlling the pain.
after that,
i spent 3 hours in ava squirming like a worm controlling the pain.
after that,
i still continued squirming at home like a worm controlling the pain.

but then the most terrible pain i endured was what i endured in the ava.
i practically sit on the chair, with countless number of positions.
i can be lying on the table.
i can be lying on the chair's left arm.
i can be lying on the chair's right arm.
i can be lying peiying's table.
i can be lying on my legs.
i can be lying on the chair itself.

when it was 6pm,
i found myself sitting on the ground,
desperately grabbing onto peiying's skirt.
and then supressing the vomit.

after tuesday,
i thought everything's going to be fine on wednesday.
and then NO,
the horrible feeling stays.
i feel like there's a hole in my stomach.
whatever i eat, falls out of that hole,
and then my stomach is empty all over again.
so i thought everything's going to be fine today.
and then once again, NO,
the feeling is still there.
plus, i have some weird awkward feeling in my stomach now.
so, if i sum it up,
i feel like i'm about to deliver.
(like i know how delivering feels like like that. -..- )

i feel so super screwed.
so i think it'll be fine tomorrow.
wish me luck.

i ..
feel like effing removing my stomach now.