i don't feel like moving a muscle at all.
yet, i'm forcing myself to go later.
i don't have a choice.
needs to make a birthday card for my mummy.
or else she'll be complaining about having no sincerity and all those.
but, i'm really really running out of ideas how to make a birthday card.
like, i haven't made one in a gazillion years.

another trouble is i have no idea what to get for her.
she can't eat too much food.
or else her hypertension and all those whatever sickening illnesses will increase.
besides, she has been feasting all those new year goodies over the new year period.
i think that's like totally enough.
it's like, when i come home at like 6.40pm, i see her on the sofa eating.
after dinner at like 8.00pm, i see her eating again.
after i bathe at like 5 + pm, she is like eating again.
kay, i know i make her sound like some obese woman.
but she's not.
i'm pretty sure about that.

and i can't get her some useless stuff like many people like to.
some random stuff, like ... i don't even know what stuff.
goodness.
this is getting so hard.

like previous years, when i can't find a present for her,
i'll just say " my present for you is my grades lah. "
and it always, like always turns out to be atrocious grades.
so i better not say this this year.
maybe it's like some curse,
say already then my grades will really be atrocious.
aha, like real wenxin.
your grades have always been that bad.

ah, nevermind.
i'll ponder about that issue later on.

________________________________________________________

another thing that is kind of stucked in my mind is actually choir.
unexpectedly, like really. unexpected.
never thought i really would be like .. concern about choir.
so, i've been really occupied by choir.
they keep on emphasizing that SYF is around the corner,
emphasizing that they do not want a bronze this year again.
like, of course i know.
it's like you're like the bottom in class, of course you dont want to be in the bottom again.
unless, unless.. you know it.

but i just think that the timing is like so not right.
though i don't even know when the timing will be right.
like now, i've got like numerous tests to take.
and ya, i know many people dont study for them.
cause they either don't care about it, or naturally born smart.
but so unfortunately i don't belong to either of the group.
i do care about my tests.
like how really fucking pissed off i get with myself when i see a low mark.
and i'm like totally not naturally born smart.
some people just have to listen to what the teacher says once, and they'll get it for life.
but i don't.
i need to read the whole damn thing again and again and again.
and of course, receive help from my sister.
like, ya.
where will i be without my sister? hahahaa.
and ya,
though she always have that pissed off face and answers me reluctantly.
that..
" aiya, go away la, dumb!" face.

aha, i just realised i'm off topic.
so i was saying the timing isn't right.
like every night i sleep like 12.30 or 1am.
ya, i know many other people can tahan until 3 or 4am.
but i classify them as ..
i don't know.
probably nocturnal animals. -.-
and, i'm like a normal animal.
i get very lethargic the next day, throughout the whole day.
so i think i'm probably lethargic five days a week.
so when it comes to choir,
i totally lack of motivation.
lack of motivation to do anything, except to sleep.
eh, i'm serious okay.
sometimes i don't even feel like opening my mouth to speak.
and if i do that, people will ask.
" eh, why you like thaaaaaat? "
bloody. sickening. irritativeness to the maximum.

apart from that,
i still have to stand and sing.
it's like double usage of my low amount of energy left.
i think i probably appear to be " can't be bothered " face.
but i'm just really. trying my best already.
D:
but then overall,
i still do hope that choir won't get another bronze.
haha, cause i think i will really be like that pissed off if we still get another bronze.
it'll be like,
whatthehell, did i just waste four months of my time.
DID I?
HUH, HUH, HUH?
ya, probably something like that.

yep,
now i need to go out already.
and hopefully i won't kena aim after this.

i don't feel like moving a muscle at all.
yet, i'm forcing myself to go later.
i don't have a choice.
needs to make a birthday card for my mummy.
or else she'll be complaining about having no sincerity and all those.
but, i'm really really running out of ideas how to make a birthday card.
like, i haven't made one in a gazillion years.

another trouble is i have no idea what to get for her.
she can't eat too much food.
or else her hypertension and all those whatever sickening illnesses will increase.
besides, she has been feasting all those new year goodies over the new year period.
i think that's like totally enough.
it's like, when i come home at like 6.40pm, i see her on the sofa eating.
after dinner at like 8.00pm, i see her eating again.
after i bathe at like 5 + pm, she is like eating again.
kay, i know i make her sound like some obese woman.
but she's not.
i'm pretty sure about that.

and i can't get her some useless stuff like many people like to.
some random stuff, like ... i don't even know what stuff.
goodness.
this is getting so hard.

like previous years, when i can't find a present for her,
i'll just say " my present for you is my grades lah. "
and it always, like always turns out to be atrocious grades.
so i better not say this this year.
maybe it's like some curse,
say already then my grades will really be atrocious.
aha, like real wenxin.
your grades have always been that bad.

ah, nevermind.
i'll ponder about that issue later on.

________________________________________________________

another thing that is kind of stucked in my mind is actually choir.
unexpectedly, like really. unexpected.
never thought i really would be like .. concern about choir.
so, i've been really occupied by choir.
they keep on emphasizing that SYF is around the corner,
emphasizing that they do not want a bronze this year again.
like, of course i know.
it's like you're like the bottom in class, of course you dont want to be in the bottom again.
unless, unless.. you know it.

but i just think that the timing is like so not right.
though i don't even know when the timing will be right.
like now, i've got like numerous tests to take.
and ya, i know many people dont study for them.
cause they either don't care about it, or naturally born smart.
but so unfortunately i don't belong to either of the group.
i do care about my tests.
like how really fucking pissed off i get with myself when i see a low mark.
and i'm like totally not naturally born smart.
some people just have to listen to what the teacher says once, and they'll get it for life.
but i don't.
i need to read the whole damn thing again and again and again.
and of course, receive help from my sister.
like, ya.
where will i be without my sister? hahahaa.
and ya,
though she always have that pissed off face and answers me reluctantly.
that..
" aiya, go away la, dumb!" face.

aha, i just realised i'm off topic.
so i was saying the timing isn't right.
like every night i sleep like 12.30 or 1am.
ya, i know many other people can tahan until 3 or 4am.
but i classify them as ..
i don't know.
probably nocturnal animals. -.-
and, i'm like a normal animal.
i get very lethargic the next day, throughout the whole day.
so i think i'm probably lethargic five days a week.
so when it comes to choir,
i totally lack of motivation.
lack of motivation to do anything, except to sleep.
eh, i'm serious okay.
sometimes i don't even feel like opening my mouth to speak.
and if i do that, people will ask.
" eh, why you like thaaaaaat? "
bloody. sickening. irritativeness to the maximum.

apart from that,
i still have to stand and sing.
it's like double usage of my low amount of energy left.
i think i probably appear to be " can't be bothered " face.
but i'm just really. trying my best already.
D:
but then overall,
i still do hope that choir won't get another bronze.
haha, cause i think i will really be like that pissed off if we still get another bronze.
it'll be like,
whatthehell, did i just waste four months of my time.
DID I?
HUH, HUH, HUH?
ya, probably something like that.

yep,
now i need to go out already.
and hopefully i won't kena aim after this.