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Tuesday, July 03, 2007 @ 3:33 AM

second time blogging in a day.

suddenly it just popped up in my mind that i haven't give my daddy a answer.
he wishes me to go for it.
but i just wanna ran away from this freaking problem.
i'm doing fine and why must he inteferre?
i know he is trying to help and care, but I SAID I'M FINE.

i'm afraid.
i don't wanna go into the operation room alone.
idon'ttrustdoctors

i know they said they are trying to just use RADIOWAVE to expand the passageway of my nose.
can you just imagine?
a tube going into your nose, and try to use electricity or whatsoever shit to expand the passageway of your nose.
somemore what if no parents are not allowed in the room?
i'm already afraid.
going in with no hand to hold and grab IF i'm gonna be in pain. ( which is most probably. )
it sucks.

i'm oh-so-bloody-sad now.
i want evelyn to go in with me! ( she's more "excited" than me lor. )

you know?
sometimes when the doctor is trying to explain the procedure of the operation and whatever shit.
i just feel like taking the stupid pen he's holding and whack it on his head.
not the pen, i would rather use the "human model".


after some consideration, ..
this time, i'm gonna be the brave girl.
go to hell so what if YOUR son did that operation too?
so what if he studies in raffles?
i shall go do the bloody operation.
but wait, if it just help for one or two years,
oh damn.
i swear, I'LL NEVER GO FOR IT AGAIN.


i'm NOT THAT DUMB.