i cannot stand or take this, huge blow.

everything is starting to fall onto me. i'm trying to hold on to it. but they'll slip soon. slip whr? slip right onto my head. or maybe it's a good idea for it to fall onto my head. then i will forget everything. isn't it great?

i've got a mum. who thinks that i'm lying in every single point, word, letter that i say. she don believe in me and she made and ensured that i don believe in her too. greatt. again right? she don allow me this that, gives me that face whenever i come home. i really had enough of this already. ENOUGH i'm not trying to act the bloody emoness in me. but i'm bloody hell trying to scream with the pain in my heart when no one actually hears. NO ONE. THEY DON GET IT. THEY JUST DON. ALL THEY SAY IS JUST '' DON CRY LA. DON CRY" GREATFUL YES. SOMEONE JUST BLOODY HELL TELL ME THAT I'M NOT GOING MAD AND I'M NOT BREAKING DOWN. no one understands. AHHHHHH. i want to scream. scream to who? TELL ME? WHO THE BLOODY HELL WILL LET ME SCREAM, for nothing? no one. human are selfish. they care about themselves, only. they think tt they only belong to HE or SHE herself or himself. my heart is just flooded with things. who can i tell huh? TELL ME, as if i'm begging you. PLEASE tell me. i cannot stand it anymore. so wee? i'm gonna get depression. wa. great. and maybe when i really get it. my mum will scold me for being sad. WHO THE FUCKING HELL GAVE THIS SADNESS AND SORROW AND PAIN TO ME? WHO ? WHO ? WHO? fine. myself. i curse myself.


TEN "GREAT THINGS" my mum did.

#1 - locking me up in the bloody home, not giving me any freedom.
# 2 - trying to dishearten me in everyway she can.
#3 - showing that biase attitude.
#4 - getting scolding for nth, while she treats my sister lyk gem
#5 - don even bother wad i feel or say
# 6 - nvr did she ever think of i said, treating all my letters as SHIT.
#7 - controlling me , as if i'm a bloody puppet.
#8 - gives me that glare and stare almost everyday, making me fill with hatred.
#9 - making me feel so insecure at home.
#10 - making me cry every single day.

isn't she just a wonder mother? no one will get it. no one will get how i feel. NO ONE
because human is far too selfish, including me and her.

i don cry in school. i don want to be called as a crybaby. i donno want tt person to hate me again. no. no. i don want them to leave one by one. where i already lost the sense of secure at home. in school, almost everywhr. i really donno whr i should head for. i'm in the lost. LOST, LOST.




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i cannot stand or take this, huge blow.

everything is starting to fall onto me. i'm trying to hold on to it. but they'll slip soon. slip whr? slip right onto my head. or maybe it's a good idea for it to fall onto my head. then i will forget everything. isn't it great?

i've got a mum. who thinks that i'm lying in every single point, word, letter that i say. she don believe in me and she made and ensured that i don believe in her too. greatt. again right? she don allow me this that, gives me that face whenever i come home. i really had enough of this already. ENOUGH i'm not trying to act the bloody emoness in me. but i'm bloody hell trying to scream with the pain in my heart when no one actually hears. NO ONE. THEY DON GET IT. THEY JUST DON. ALL THEY SAY IS JUST '' DON CRY LA. DON CRY" GREATFUL YES. SOMEONE JUST BLOODY HELL TELL ME THAT I'M NOT GOING MAD AND I'M NOT BREAKING DOWN. no one understands. AHHHHHH. i want to scream. scream to who? TELL ME? WHO THE BLOODY HELL WILL LET ME SCREAM, for nothing? no one. human are selfish. they care about themselves, only. they think tt they only belong to HE or SHE herself or himself. my heart is just flooded with things. who can i tell huh? TELL ME, as if i'm begging you. PLEASE tell me. i cannot stand it anymore. so wee? i'm gonna get depression. wa. great. and maybe when i really get it. my mum will scold me for being sad. WHO THE FUCKING HELL GAVE THIS SADNESS AND SORROW AND PAIN TO ME? WHO ? WHO ? WHO? fine. myself. i curse myself.


TEN "GREAT THINGS" my mum did.

#1 - locking me up in the bloody home, not giving me any freedom.
# 2 - trying to dishearten me in everyway she can.
#3 - showing that biase attitude.
#4 - getting scolding for nth, while she treats my sister lyk gem
#5 - don even bother wad i feel or say
# 6 - nvr did she ever think of i said, treating all my letters as SHIT.
#7 - controlling me , as if i'm a bloody puppet.
#8 - gives me that glare and stare almost everyday, making me fill with hatred.
#9 - making me feel so insecure at home.
#10 - making me cry every single day.

isn't she just a wonder mother? no one will get it. no one will get how i feel. NO ONE
because human is far too selfish, including me and her.

i don cry in school. i don want to be called as a crybaby. i donno want tt person to hate me again. no. no. i don want them to leave one by one. where i already lost the sense of secure at home. in school, almost everywhr. i really donno whr i should head for. i'm in the lost. LOST, LOST.




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